Best wishes >> poniedziałek, 5 stycznia 2009 15:05:54
Yeah, so: merry christmas and happy new year, everyone!
That was the official part. Now, time to complain.
I don't remember when was the last time mylog worked fine. Really, I understand that there may be some problems, but all the time? Come on! That's fucking riddiculous. I can't add notes, I can't read anyone's blog, I can't download notes from my rpg (I want to save them for later use, btw). I couldn't add christmas and new year wishes because of that, too. Sorry.
I have a new obssession - D.Gray-man. I love it.
And I love both Allen and Cross, by the way X333. Sweet...
komentarze [0]So tired... >> czwartek, 16 października 2008 21:06:07
I find it hard to keep my eyes open... I'm so tired... Actually, for the last few weeks I've been pretty exhausted. I don't even know, why... I only want to sleeeeep... It may be because I have troubles with eating - I feel sick whenever I see food and so I don't eat too much. I have to force it... I guess I should go and see a doctor about that, but I have no time.
komentarze [1]Tired >> sobota, 2 sierpnia 2008 20:50:27
You don't even know how tired I am... I visited Justyś today, the party is still there, but some of them are leaving tomorrow. They're coming back in a few days, though, so that's fine. Sadly, I couldn't spend the night with them, but oh well... Maybe some other time. I hope so. Anyway, we had great fun and we even thought about the band I'm trying to create. Justyś promised to be my manager. We made a seal with blood and so it's official... So, if I'm lucky enough, maybe I'll be able to sing in a gothic metal band, like I've always wanted to. Now, wouldn't that be... Nice?
One more thing. Boys took pictures of me and Justyna and that's okay, but... I wonder about one thing. We kissed about 7 times, so why is there only one photo? I'll have to ask them...
Amen...
komentarze [2]Whatever? >> wtorek, 24 czerwca 2008 19:11:40
Seems like I haven't writen anything for a while... Well... I guess I should have thought it over and if I did, I would be giving You some excuses now... But, truth to be told, I'm just too lazy to do even that
A few days ago Jubiliana and Tijami visited me. It was kind of my birthday party... Even thought my birthday is 26.06, but oh well. I got some pretty gifts from them, too! Jubi gave me some jewelry (I LOVE dragonflies *-*, this necklace is so beautiful!), while from Ti I got a black blouse with a gothic symbol and some writings ^^. Thank You, once again!
Right now, I'm rather worried about the future... No, wait. That sounded serious, but it's not that bad! It's just that... I'd like to go to Warsaw some time soon, preferably during the last week of July, so I can pick up Mana. She would stay with me for about a week or so and then we would leave for Dojicon together. Did I mention that I'm going to go there? I guess not. Well, I did now.
What else to say... Oh, right! I remember! I have a new love - RG Veda... And a few characters from it, which are: Ashura, Kujaku and Souma ^^. I guess I'll finish reading it soon. Not today, but maybe tomorrow...
Fine, I'm done with this note - Yuna wants me to write a story with her and I just can't say no to her. She's scary, You know?
Farewell!
komentarze [3]Mother's Day >> wtorek, 27 maja 2008 10:55:55
It was yesterday...
Actually, I have no idea what to write now.
We went to the graveyard and gave Mother roses... But it's not unusual, because we go there every day and we change flowers often. Other than than, I bought some sweets for my grandmother; after all, she takes care of me, so I guess that was the right thing to do. Right?
I don't have to go to school today. Teacher are sitting-in or whatever they call it. They may strike all they want, I support them... I'm sure most of the students does.
I think I'll play Gothic III or Assassin's Creed now...
Ja ne!
komentarze [1]Attention >> środa, 16 kwietnia 2008 12:48:04
PLEASE READ WHAT'S UNDER THIS!
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.
Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it!komentarze [1]Women's Day >> piątek, 7 marca 2008 20:28:40
Yeah... It's tommorow, but I'm probably going to forget, so...
Happy Women's Day for every lady out there!
komentarze [1]I want to wish You a Gothic Christmas X3 >> niedziela, 23 grudnia 2007 19:52:37
"We're gonna have a gothic christmas; that is what we'll do
We're gonna have a gothic christmas; hope you'll have one too
Santa's going to wear a black dress just for me and you.
Santa's going to grunt in latin and slay a dragon or two.
Rudolph, he will change his name
'Cause rudolph just sounds pretty lame.
Now we'll call him Ragnagord, the evil reindeer overlord.
His nose it shall be red no more.
It will be blackened to the core.
His eyes will glow an evil glow to guide the chariot through the snow.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We're gonna have a gothic christmas; that is what we'll do.
We're gonna have a gothic christmas; hope you have one too.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
We want to wish you a gothic christmas.
Hope you'll have a gothic christmas too."
- Gothic Christmas, Within Temptation.
komentarze [3]I'm sorry, I can't be perfect... >> środa, 31 października 2007 20:26:35
"(...) And now I try hard to make it,
I just want to make you proud.
I'm never gonna be good enough for you...
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright...
'Cuz we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever...
I'm sorry,
I can't be perfect...
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back...
I'm sorry,
I can't be perfect... (...)"
/"Perfect", Simple Plan/
***
I've just got into an argument with my family.
You khow why? Because I didn't want to eat... Like always. Then other things came out, so I left, went to my room, sat on my bed and tried to find something sharp enough. Sadly, I found nothing. Just scissors, but they weren't sharp enough... I know, because I checked.
Eh, I hate it. Everything: myself, life... I study hard and noone notices it, I try my best, always, but it never turns out good for me. No matter what I do, I do it wrong. I never have anything my way. I don't want to be a doctor - but I will be, because my father has planned it. He also said that I will have to get married with a doctor, so we will have enough money to pay for my father, too. Isn't it sweet how much he cares about me?
I know I'm not stupid, but I'm also not very pretty, so tell me: who will ever like me? Noone and... Actually, I don't really care. But I hate it when people pity me for that or try to make me think I'm pretty - I can't stand it! I'm ugly, I know it and when some beautiful girl tries to make my change my mind... I'm sick of it, because I know she's lieing. Well, not just sick - it makes me hate myself even more.
But You know what? I'm not jealous or angry at those, who have it better. And why is that, You may ask. Simple. Because they will die some boring death one day and I won't. It's the only thing that I can decide about on my own - and I won't let anyone take it away from me. I know I will die a beautiful death, with lots of blood, because it's the most beautiful thing I can think about. I will end everything with help of a blade. One day. Not yet, because I'm not strong enough right now. But one day - I will be. And when I free myself, I hope that my sisters won't cry and be sad, because that's my will and if they really love my, they will accept and respect it. Maybe after death there is nothing - fine, this is the way I want to have it. For once in my life, I will egoistically choose what to do; not my family nor friends. Oh, and I hope that they will understand me.
Finally.
komentarze [1]I'm not dead... Yet. >> poniedziałek, 8 października 2007 20:04:59
But I may be soon. I'm ill and I feel terrible.
I have so much to learn... Biology, mostly.
But also history, polish, french, physics... T^T
Eh, I guess it's my own fault... Stupid me.
But, no matter what, I will become a doctor.
Even if it is the last thing I do =='. Oh, well.
Go back to learning now, I guess.
Ja ne!
Ps. Someone, please, kill me. Pretty please.
komentarze [3]BORED... >> czwartek, 23 sierpnia 2007 19:45:10
I'm bored... What else can I say?
A few days ago my family from England visited us...
My aunt, her mother and my cousins... Sweet *^^*.
They are both really cute... And so inteligent!
They speak both Polish and English very well.
One of them, Emma, is seven years old,
While her sister, Charlotte, is three years younger.
Awww *^^*. I can't wait to have my own kids...
I showed them my house and we played with my dog...
And when they saw my drawings, they liked them, too!
I'm going to miss them... TT^TT
Yesterday I went to Przemyśl to meet with Tijami-imoto-chan...
I met my new 'sister' - Amy-imoto-chan, too *^^*.
Such a big family, who would think, ne? I wouldn't...
Bad thing is that I couldn't stay with them too long.
Right now I'm really tired... And kind of scared.
With every second, every story, every amv...
...I like Haruno Sakura even more o.O. Strange, ne?
But she's so pretty and intelligent and... Awww *^^*.
I love her in Shippuuden, after her training with Tsunade X3.
She kicks ass... X333 Just like Tsunade-hime does ^^.
komentarze [5]The Anniversary >> piątek, 10 sierpnia 2007 11:49:36
Tomorrow is the 7th anniversary of my Mother's death.
Due to that fact, I may or may not be present...
Arigatou
Click for a pick
komentarze [3]... Bored... >> środa, 25 lipica 2007 16:08:01
I'm bored...
I'm watching amvs in tribute to Saint Seiya right now.
With Nightwish music *^^*. So pretty *-*.
In case I lost them somehow, here they are:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=_psJjuwS-Uo
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vQtTYooANy0
http://youtube.com/watch?v=9sKE0LlOToA
http://youtube.com/watch?v=E0qz99mDtNI
http://youtube.com/watch?v=rWDtdfNSLbM
And my favourite one:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7LjGwCoTkA0
Arigatou ^^.
komentarze [1]Music >> sobota, 9 czerwca 2007 21:47:16
I'm trying to add some music...
Actually, it's Hinata's theme...
Can You hear it? =='
If so, do you like it? ^^
komentarze [4]Quiz >> piątek, 1 czerwca 2007 18:25:52
I'm putting it here, because I don't know when I'll lose my lovely net.
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