+ And again... + >> środa, 28 marca 2007 20:14:01
"Miss Perfect"
I used to think: "She has it all",
With perfect family, friends and boy,
Most popular everywhere she goes,
At school - best grades, of course.
Who doesn't know her? Everyone does.
Brains, big heart, looks she has...
She's never done anything wrong;
No imperfection, at any cost.
Look how she's holding her head so high...
Really, she has her reasons to be proud.
Reasons, why she gets all the attention,
That I'll just forget to mention.
She's coming; notice the people all around.
Her friends, yes, and her own fans.
Seems like they'd do anything for her;
In deeps of their souls they wish her Hell.
She passed me by, giving a perfect smile -
Not for me, I'm not worth things like that!
In her mind I must be a bug...
Everyone is, so why think otherwise?
Yes, I envied her and I wanted
To become her friend, no wonder...
Not anymore. I know her only flaw!
I don't love her for... she's not real at all...
komentarze [3]+ A poem... Don't ask + >> środa, 28 marca 2007 20:12:01
"I'll love you after the end"
With a single drop, rolling down her cheek,
A tear -
Like a shattered glass,
A broken dream.
She has never had the courage
To say those words to him.
Is it too late now?
He is no longer here.
With not-so-first drop,
Falling on the razor and wrist;
With the last tear ever,
Her last thoughts - of him.
Not crystal, but crimson drops,
Making their way down from her hand;
With the last breath in that chest:
"Please, wait for my three words there!'
It's not a happy ending;
There's no such a thing as them.
With an unnecessary death
Comes the end of every thing.
The death is the end.
There is nothing after that.
komentarze [1]Enough >> czwartek, 22 marca 2007 19:56:55
To sum few things up:
First of all, I'm not good enough, I know that.
I'm ugly, that's true and too intelligent to be liked.
Yeah, so what about it, you may ask?
E v e r y t h i n g !
Cause it hurts so much,
Being aware of the fact I will now be loved.
Why is that? Because I'm not like other girls.
In the negative way, may I add. And I should.
Yes. Next thing: I don't eat even half of what I should.
Family yells at me about it, but I don't want to eat.
One reason - normally, I'm not hungry.
Another reason - it's a way to die, long, but still...
Moreover, I cut myself, so I'm a freak. Clear, isn't it?
Yes. I'm a psycho. I should be separated from normal people.
Why I cut myself? Those, who do, should know.
Those, who don't, won't understand. Enough of an explanation.
I can hurt myself easily. By just BEING myself.
Because I'm ugly, useless, being used and left alone after that.
I starve myself and cut myself, but it's MY choice, so don't lecture me.
Still, I cannot kill myself. I planned it many times.
I have a lot of letters that I'd like to leave to my... well. To leave.
I'm just too weak. That's funny. Being too weak both to live AND to die.
I've realised a long time ago, the hard thing is to make a choice.
Then it's getting a lot easier after that. I have no strength to choose.
I guess that would be it. I'm feeling better now, that I said this stuff.
Don't say I'm wrong.
Don't tell me I'm great.
Don't lecture me.
Don't try to help me.
Don't try to make an optimist.
Because I'm not wrong.
Because I'm worthless.
Because I don't need hints.
Because I don't want any help.
Because I know life better, than to be optimist.
Got it?
Now, perfect people. You can add a comment.
Now, my sisters. You don't have to say a thing.
Amen, says the heretic one.
komentarze [2]A Game? ... You're dead, sisi... >> sobota, 3 marca 2007 16:02:54
I'll kill You, KIrhan.
That was first.
About the game you dragged me into...
Eh... Do I have to? =='
OK. So, I gotta put 5 things about me.
Here we go...
1. I love Haku with all my heart.
2. I think Haku is more beautiful
and cut(e) than any girl I've ever seen.
3. I'm bisexualist, so what?
4. I'm changing my image,
to look more Haku-like.
5. I'm 16 and I've never,
ever, had a boyfriend in my life.
Fuck them.
And if you wanna know, some people,
who I will not point out,
think that I'm a whore.
I choose:
Tijami
Konar
Jubiliana
Gaia
Eris
Hell, yeah.
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